Life and Love, and .....Happiness?

Mom says the best thing is to tell the truth, the worst thing to do in a situation is to not tell the truth. but what if I don't know what the truth is? what do I say then? what if we talk before I know? do I just say that I have no answers? do I explain why I am confused? or do I just avoid the situation. Mom also says that untill they tell me, I don't have to worry about it. But, Mom, you don't understand how things like this get me, how I get so involved emotionally. Emotions; sometimes, alot of times, they really suck. I hate how being a girl makes me this emotional wreack, whenever something like this happens. I'm not even supposed to know yet. thats the worst part. so me talking to anyone about it is gossip. what a way to ruin a friendship.
Tommorow, I start grade 12. what should be a glorious last year is gonna be hell. or worse. I don't know how I'm gonna do it. I don't know how I'm gonna do tommorow. how am I gonna walk amongst people I haven't seen or talked to in 6 months? become like them again? avoid conforming to them? how am I gonna go back to being treated like a child agian?
Looking at the clock at 11:11 the past four times sucks. Make it change.
Laurel

starting a blog is like starting a new journal. it feels wierd at first, untill you figure out what pen works with the paper, and you break in the binding. so this is me figuring things out. as you can see, things have changes to Italic, why? I don't know. eventually things will right themselves.
I've lerned that alot this year- God takes care of things things work out. like, If you press the Italic button, it un-italisizes things..... wierd huh? things aren't always as they seem. and as dad says "the main thing is... to have fun"
ok so this is a really random blog, and thats because I'm not really feeling anythign important that I need to share, I just need to post something so I can see what my blog looks like. so, with that, I'm gonna shut up, and leave.

Laurel